i wanna to spend more time together...
but its jus so difficult...
i wanna to continue in airrifle...
its e onli thing i'm good at...
but i've got no income or time...
i wanna ace in my course...
but the things dey teachin hav no link at all...
i wanna always protect meimei...
but i'm always 1 step behind...
did i make a wrong move anywhere???
Fuck lah...
i feel so lousy...


ni shuo ni kan dao wo hui kai xin yi dian dian...
ke shi ni zhe yang shou wo jiu hen kai xin le...

i realli dunno why tommy teachin us art...
i mean de art as in picasso dat kind of art...
it has no relevent to our course at all lor-.-
but still gotta see and hear about it day in day out-.-
lik brainwash lik dat...
hahas...

everi time he show us video...
de class will start to slp...
onli a few wont slp...
and dat is because we are strugglin not to-.-
de others don giv a heck and fall strait to slp-.-
and he giv instruction also lik shit lik dat...
hahas(jus a figure of speech)
he will say one whole bunch of things...
den strait away de whole class will ans him: HUH???
hahas...
den 1 person will jus ask him in simple terms...
onli den he will he ans simply...
den again de whole class will ans: ORH-.-...
stupid rite-.-
dunno why...
he always say until so chim den no 1 know wat he talkin...

onli second week and my work load start to pile liao...
and is not because i never do lei...
is because de work keep comin in lor...
yes...
poli life is nicer...
but the work itself can kill u-.-
(for my course lah...)


are 'we' an 'us'???





i realli lik eminem sia...
he is damn swift sia damn swift...
there is no rapper lik him sia...





Dear Mr YAOSONG
4 years in secondary and u dunno dat wat u say to 1 person will spread???
stupid-.-
since u so smart...
u shld know rite???
otherwise i suggest u go back to holy for another 4 years-.-

get ur facts rite lah for goodness sake-.-
after so long u still thinkin de same thing AH???
plsss...from sec 4 we start jokin about it le...
get it rite and say de rite things-.-
u think dat by me fu*kin u up will make ur life worse ah...
wat about de real victum???u BODOK-.-

SUREEE...u can lie to urself all u wan...
i wont mind at all=)
realli=)
but once u start tellin ppl about it...
i will be up ur ass soooo fast...
u wont get time to scream-.-

u wan me to print it in black and white and giv u a certificate before u admit it???
to yaosong:
IT NEVER HAPPENED-.-
LIV WITH IT-.-
IDIOT-.-
signed:leonard=)

u know wat u did de worse dat i cant take it???
u wan me to say it in black and white and sign it again???
or u know wat i'm sayin???
if still dunno den call:1800-i'mgonnascrewu-8989
(u can also cal my number...dat wan u shld be able to get through)
soo much for cryin durin de mass...
if u realli hurt durin dat time...
den why do u say dis now???

dear meimei:
no one!!!...
i mean it...
NO ONE!!!
(well maybe me and glenn are exceptions lah)
is gonna bully u...
in any matter...
anyway anyhow...
anything that might hurt u...
is gonna go through me first-.-
after all...i made a promice=)


i think my course is trin to kill me...
first lesson and i already got 2 projectsT.T
everiday 12 to 6 T.T...
and for god sake...i'm a DNT student...
not an art student...
how de hell am i suppsoe to know nuts about art???
now i even gotta learn how to paint...
its gonna be 1 damn long year-.-

damn...was i jealous???o.O


tml first day liao...

but onli got one student meetin jiu can run liao=)

hehes...

see can anot i go find WL...

if not jiu go home slack lor...

=)



my couse onli got around 34 ppl-.-

damn little compared to others-.-

actually...

its de smallest in design school-.-

hahas...

and no chio bu...=P*hint.hint...

alot of guys..

and mostly is cannot enter others which is why they end up here-.-

is lik i'm de onli 1 who put P.I.D(product&industrial design) as first choice lor-.-



i love my design school=)

de ppl there all veri high...

jus de way i lik it=)

and de school veri small...

so will always meet each other=)

and there is already 3 seinors i lik liao...

jia ling,saddiq&ethel=)






lik it???its our design school dance=)


first day of orientation...
hahas...
its was okay lah...
kinda fun...
alot of new games i never try before...
I KNOW HOW TO DANCE=)))
hahas...
it was dis mass design school dance...
it was damn cute...
imagine...540 ppl stand in a hall and dance together=)
hahas...
i danced with a girl...
but u say u trust me=)
made me feel good=)

goin for de camp tml for 3 days...
first day go sentosa=)))
second day dunno wat...
but third day got inter school challenge...
hahas...
my bro also gonna play for bis school...
i gonna kick his butt=))

i lik de director...
chubby...
funny...
full of jokes=))
hahas...sounds lik baba hor XP
but...
in my group...
onli one from my course...
production and industrial design...
de rest all other course de...
turn out...
dey group u by where u live so dat u get to go school together...
kinda stupid actualli...
if not same course why de hell will go school together-.-

poli realli veri diff from secondary...
veri little boundary
de ppl more crazy...
and the teachers are actualli ur friend...
serious...
i'm suppous to cal de director of my school:moses
not 'sir' not 'mr'...but jus.Moses...
cool o.o
hahas...

aris say my group got alot chio bu...
i beg to differ-.-
they are...
okay lah...
but i know someone who can beat them=)
O.o hor???


lik the flower???
would hav been a nice if u came =)
gonna miss u...

went to eat dinner with jj,edwin,janice,CC and joanna today...
i learn a new word...
khou...i think its spelled lik dat...
it means rice in thai...

Green cury Rocks=)
but the wat rose with lemon was onli a pass...
goin for orientation tml...dunno wat to expact...
so i'll jus keep an open mind...
and hope for e best=)





one of u best gitar solo i've seen...





woyehenxihuanni=)





hmmmmmm....
i lazy to type...
cal me if u wanna know wat happen today hahas=))))


is something goin on???


i once heard dis:

when you love someone.

No matter what happen to you or that person.

That person will always have a place in your heart.

Because u loved that someone.



i belive in this...

i'll tell you why=)



(when you love someone)

i always saw her at the mrt on e way to school...

jus a girl...

any normal girl if u see in a crowd...

but something of that girl caught my attention...

don ask me wat it was...

even now i cant ans u fully...

was it love???

i had no idea...=)



i did not even know her name...

whether she was sec 3 or 4...

all i knew was that she was...

hmm...how shld i say it...

i had dis feelin for her...

somthing special...



den i knew who she was...

yeoshiyun from sec4...

saw her in her class...

after some time...

i was sure i love her=)



it was so fas...

realli...

ver veri fas...

i got her phone number from ah chun's phone...

secretly took it XP...

and after alot of thinkin(shld i sms???shld i not sms???)

i finally smsed her...

and i was de olderst trick in de book...

"hey...i'm the guy u usually saw in de mornin in e mrt...my name is leonard from 4 sin...can we be friends???"

it was something lik dat...i think...cant realli remember=P

one sentence dat took me a few days to think...

idiotic rite...



after some non-stop sms...

and in a few days...we could say we were gettin together...

but still its not a stead if u never asked=)

so i asked...

in again...

i a kinda old fashion way...

a box full of stars...

a poem in it...

and a ring...one dat i liked alot...

she never realli replied my que...

but we both knew de ans...



so we got toghther...

it was nice when it lasted...

at least to me=)

and i realli loved her...

the fear of losin her was there...

i told her before.

L:i scared lei...

S:scared of wat???

L:i scared of losin U

i forgot wat was her reply...



(No matter wat happen to you or that person)

so we broke up...

i cant realli remember when...

but i remember how...

if i was not wrong...

we did not msg,meet or cal each other for quite sometime...

and i was actually expactin it...

i jus deny it...

den it came...

one sms...

"u free???can we talk???i got something to tell u..."

for me...

dat was when i know dat my head was already on the chopin board...

and the knive is already cutting the hears off my neck...

and we broke up jus lik dat...

i was slamed at dat time...

total blank...

and till now...

i dunno why i did not fight back...

i jus said"okay"

damn i was stupid rite???



(the person will always hav a place in your heart)

it was hard...real hard after dat...

i kept askin wat i did wrong...

i even asked if i WAS wrong...

i was angry at her and myself...

not a veri nice feelin to be in...



when school started...

it was even harder...

how can u let go of someone when u get to see her everi day???

don talk about let go...i could not even try-.-

and i noticed...

she was ignorin me...

walk pass me asif i was not there...

can be in de same area around me but don even look one look at me...

it was then when i thought i realli did something veri wrong to hurt her...

but i was sure i did not-.-

i asked her why she was ignorin me???

and she say she did not...

a down rite lie from my point of view-.-

so i started to turn from longin for her...

to hate...

and i tried to go with others...

but it was so freakin hard-.-

it was hard because i could not fully love or lik someone else when de image and de memories keep comin...

it was jus too unfair to de girl if i went too woo her...

my mind could not let go of shiyun...

not yet...

but slowly...realli slowly...i did...

it was easier bein around her...

and i learned to not care about her ignorin me...

it was near de 'O's rumour hit me hard...

damn hard...

it was said dat shiyun broke up with me cause i flirt...

well let me ask u fuckers out there...

how can someone flirt?when dey love their stead so so much.

dat even after dey broke up...

he still loves her...

he cant go with other girls because he still have de hope dat she will come back to him huh???

any takers wanna ans dat???-.-

i was pissed...

realli pissed...

fuckin pissed...

i said alot of hurtin stuff jus to get back at sayin i flirt...

i realli hated her...

at dat time realli...

i jus wanted to hit it all back...

i regret...



it was her one birthday before her birthday...

i bought a gift for her...

under so much hate...one shld not be buyin birthday gifts for dat person rite???

but i jus could not not do it...

even when ppl told me and asked me not too...

i still did it...

with a happy heart...

and i onli could have one reason in mind...

that person will always hav a palce in your heart...

den i did something i regreted again...

i could not gave her de present directly to her...

because i still could not face her yet...

not yet...

and de other reason i sbecause she was always surrounded-.-

soo...

i put it in her mail box...

pretty stupid...i know...

and when she smsed me to ask me if i was de one who send it to her...

i got angry...

i dunno why...i jus got mad...

"if yes are u gonna throw it away???if no are u gonna keep it???"

i guess i still could not climb over de sayin i flirt part yet...



(because you loved that someone)

it was awhile after her birthday...

i will sometimes jus go under her house...

do ask me why...

i jus wanted too...

jus sit at the stairs and look at her room...

sometimes wishing she would look down...

damn...sound lik a stalker actually...

but then...

for a time later...

it all stoped...

de longin...

de thinkin...

and to cut my burden...

she told me she had never said dat i flirt...

it helped...

alot...

i began too know dat we can never love each other lik in de pass...

not on my side and never on hers...

so u can actually say dat i have moved???

hehes...

but...liked i said...we may not love each other le...

she still hav a special position in me heart=)

because i loved her

now i got a new goal...

someone else=)

hahs...how will it turned out???

i dunno...

but i don think i will ever see or hear from shiyun for a veri veri long time...

hehes...

When you love someone.
No matter what happen to you or that person.
That person will always have a place in your heart.
Because you loved that someone=)















shld i giv it a try???
wat shld i be afraid of anyway-.-???
damn...i'm messed up...


how de hell shld i feel???


why isit always me who get nagged and scolded for not updateing???
somemore hor...de PERSON who nag me hor also nvr go update the PERSON's own blog...
still got cheek say me...say i lazy-.-
YOU no diff lor XP...
wahahahaha...
here...i update le...