kinda hate dat feelin...
lik i'm being forcefully blocked out-.-


all i need...
is a good nite slp T.T


thanks everiwan=)
thanks for evrithing eh=)
but i was jus not in de mood to enjoy anythin...
my mind was jus too full to think of anithing...
but i was realli surprised:)
and i was realli happi:)
thanks=)


xian nian her ni shuo bu ting de hua...

















痛...


its all over for me...
and i'm hurting as i look from far...


wahahahas.
even i dont know how i'm fellin now lor
hahas.
stupid rite.
well...
i don talk about it much.
i think alot.
but in the end i still cant come to a answer.
hahas:)
i feel lots of things...
i don say it out.
i don think i show it too hehes.
mos of the time becausee the crowd too happi le:)
den i also follow happi happi lor...
i feel sad.
i feel happi.
i feel disapointed.
i feel stressed.
i feel confused.
yeah:)
wish dat someone can tel me how i'm feelin hahas.
stupid-.-
lik dat would happened...
well maybe i can get a pet.
a dog or a cat.
den i blurt everi damn thing out...
dem he jus seat there and listen...
wahahahas...
dogs got this eyes that show when they realli listening to u...
dey don say anythin...
but they listen and jus eat there...
wow...
maybe we should learn more from dogs wahahahahs.
damn...
dis is a rather long post eh:)
well...
deeep...
deeeeeeep...
deeeeeeeeeeep...
down...
maybe i'm jus an idiot who havent learn to let go...
OR...
i'm jus stupid...
OR...
there is realli and answer i'm searching...
OR...
errs...
dats all i can think for now...
well...
i don lik the feeling of changin in order to be in someones goodbooks...
why do I have to change???
i' me:)
and i lik it de best when i'm me:)
i feel fustrated when i have to force myself down...
cover up...
wear a mask...
gets realli hot wahahahahs...
so...
i decided to go out everiday with out dat mask:)
who cares weither u think i'm not funni...
who cares if u think i'm lame???
who cares if i'm not more handsome den u???
wahahahs...
cause i know there will always be someone who hates me...
and there will be those who lik me:)
sia lah...
dis post realli dem long:)
dat shld be longer den enough for those who keep lookin at my blog and go:
"wth-.-never update again"
wahahahs
HOWEVER...
i'm not done spamming yet...
i found out that if you don go and care so much about ur pace during runnin...
yupp...
u don go as fas..
but u are more relax...
and the run seems easier...
and!!!
u got more energy to chiong at de ending...
think i nxt week gonna start runnin 2 rounds bah...
followed by 3...
den take a break...
let the leg rest...
den go again...
now is stamina training first...
later den speed training...
for those who are askin why i'm running???
its a secret:P
hahas...
no lah...
i training for standart charted maraton...
this year...
i aiming for 45min:)
support me if u can:)
bitch me if u don:)
and run if me if u ken:)
wahahahas...
purposly added de las line...
bye!!!:)



fuck...
i'm officially sick...
i cant talk at all-.-
all can do is whisper-.-
throat pain lik shit...
got constant headache-.-
den got presentation coming up-.-
die le...


i realli cant stand ur prompus attitude any longer-.-
its pissing me off...

well well...
i think i gonna realli suck it big time in my module...
i'm behind lots in my class...
and i pretti much suck in rendering...
i'm in biggggg shit...
hahas...

i chose to forgive and forget lik wat jaime said...
pretti hard in ur case eh???


for paddy and xian ling read the following...
i think i'm sick T.T


hehes...
you xiang guo hui dao guo qu mah???
hahas...
ppl always say to move forward...
but dat is onli if u encounted something bad...
if it was something nice...
den of cause u wanna hui dao guo qu...
even though u can never do it...
jus thinkin of goin back to the wonderful times...
nice:)
i lik being carefree and happi go lucky...
so when the oppotunity comes for me to go happi go lucky i'll take it=)
hehes...
wat doe it feel lik holding u close???
wat does it feel lik knowing u will care???
hahas...
wo men hui dao guo qu bah=)
maybe den we can find the answer...
but even if we cant...
i'll still look forward:)
i'll still hope:)
hope is lik a small flame...
sometimes ppl keeps blowing at it-.-
den the flame die out-.-
when that happens...
ppl usually giv up-.-
but i think i'm not lik dat bah hehes...
i think lah XP
my flame is small...
but no matter who keeps blowing it...
no matter who keeps pouring water over it...
i'll always always protect the flame...
i'll make sure the flame dont die out...
and even if..
if...
someone manage to put out the flame...
i relight it:)
there are ppl who help u feed the flame:)
but there will also be ppl who always wanna blow off the flame-.-
so till the time when the flame become strong enough...
i protect it:)






hmmm...i feel totally forgotten by u
yeah...and it hurts lots to think about it
and...i jus wan a little of ur attention
sound lik a kid rite???
but...i jus wish dat
jus once in awhile...you will think of me
WAhahahahs...i'll be happi:)