i don realli lik the way i'm living rite now...
i'm not goin aniwhere...
jus stuck...
lik waiting lik dat...
its lik 1 step forward and den 1 step back...
sucky rite:)
cant realli think of 1 thing dat has went totally smoothly for me...
i cant even think of wat to type lah...
hahas:)
welll...
sometimes is i take a step forward...
and something pull me back...
other times is when i take a step forward i ownself take a step back...
hahas!!!:)
dat jus sound stupid no matter how i look at it...
but still it's still happenin...
do i explain my self clearly???
i mus admit i don realli...
i usually keep it within...
stupid rite...
here i am tellin ppl to speak wat they feel to make themselves feel better...
but i myself keep it in...
sure i say it...
but usually is jus wat happened...
not how i feel...
don ask me why i do dat...
even i can answer u hahas:)
i think alot...
yes u can laugh...
hahahas!!!!
but i realli think alot...
wat happened...
why it heappened...
how it heapenned...
wat did i do...
what DIDN'T i do...
i jus think alot lah...
hahas...
maybe dats why i cant find a girl eh???
i think too much and keep too much to myself...
dunno where hear de...
but i remember someone say i at home and at school is totally diff...
i tel u theres more den dat...
i got lots of faces...
alot.....
when i'm with me archery de i'm dat kind of person...
when i'm with my PID course de i'm dat kind of person...
wheni'm with my 4 SIN den i'm dat kind of person...
when i'm with me family de i'm dat kind of person...
...
sure i open up to a few...
the few shld be smilin when seeing dis ah:)
but i don say de sad part...
de part where i'm hurt...
de part where i'm sad...
de part where i jus feel so pain...
i mean...
everi1 got probs...
few wld realli wanna add ur probs to their probs...
so if i caan solve it...
i keep it...
no need to say it...
i'll jus brood over it...
i usually come to my own conclusion...
if i don...
hehehe...
i don say it lah...
but usually de few will come and ask me:)
and i get realli happi...
i did not ask for hlp and u came to my aid...
isn't dat nice:)
i love friends=)
they make me forgot all me worries...
its lik a zone...(wa....chim)
it jus makes me focus on wats goin on eh...
i laugh i play...
i forget me probs...
but still...
even with friends...
i sometimes still think of things...
i did not even want to...
but i jus do:)
hahas...