what the fuck is wrong with me???
i hav so much...
but i still wan more...
hahas...
fuck.
seriously...
its jus all fucked up...
life is not perfect...
but it should be this complicated either...


who wans to keep falling???
it does't feel good...
cant stand...
cant stop...
cant control...
but its not dat i dowan it to stop...
but theres nothin for me to hold on...
i cant grip onto anithing...
ppl try to save me...
they reach in...
to pull me out...
to stop me from goin deeper...
but the hand i'm tryin to hold on to is not there...
you say: jus hold onto any1 lah...at least u'll get out
but can u live with that???
maybe when i hit the bottom...
then i'll finaly get to climb back up...
but then...
when i hit the bottom...
will i ever get up again???





ni zhi dao wo xian zai you duo ku dan mah???
mei le jia...
mei le ni...
zai wo zui di ruo de shi hou...
xiang dao de ren shi ni...
ke shi ni zai xiang de ren bu shi wo...
i wan anyone...
someone...
jus one...
to save me from droping...


what hav i been dis las year???
hav i changed???
i hoped not...
i liked who i was...
but alot has changed...
dat we all gotta admit...
ppl...
the feelings...
the bonds...
we cant turn back time...
so all we can do is jus try to bring back de bonds...
things might feel diffrent...
but there was and still will be a reason why we were so closed once:)
for that reason...
i don think even the most akaward situation will pull us apart...
i always mean wat i say...
i do my best to fufill my promises...
once i made a promice i intent to do it all the way...
so for those promices dat i made...
i'll continue doin them till de day i die:)
who knows???
maybe i can still do them after death???
:)


dis are de thoughts in my mind:
i cant stand u...

wat hav i done to displease u???

why mus u be up my arse???

hate ur attitude-.-

i actualli sadded...

what have i not done???

ge ge jiao luo dou tong

why cant i be happi seein dat ur happi???

i'm soooo fucked

End of thoughts.


fuck.
here i go again.
why shld u care???