RUNFORYOURUNWITHU

2009-10-26T11:50:00.000-07:00

2009-10-26T11:48:00.000-07:00

This is not what i expect...

2009-10-26T11:43:00.000-07:00

WHAT THE FUCK???

2009-10-26T11:32:00.000-07:00

Life moves on...

as for me i jus go wih the flow...

2009-10-05T08:38:00.000-07:00

wanna talk???

2009-10-04T10:39:00.000-07:00

never wished to hurt u...
caused i promised that i''ll protect you...
but i hope you know that the decisions i make...
are for the better of your sake...

JAN AH JAN

2009-09-11T09:04:00.000-07:00

hmmmm...
how should i put this???
ow well..
jus put it down in words...

lik i said i will always support u...
as long as the decision is made with ur heart/body/soul/brain...
and as long as it does not sound stupid
(which it usually does)
hahas!!!
i know i can never let nothin happen to u...
den NOTHIN WILL ever happen to u...
and frankly dats stupid and boring rite???
hahas...
but i think u know.
and i'm jus gonna say again so dat u do know
=)
even if something does happen.
i will be that pillar(hopefully a comfortable 1)
that u can lean on=)
and if ani1 dare to strike u down...
i will stirke that person until he/she dunno their mother is who.
maybe i shld tell u before striking them...
maybe not...
see my mood lah...
aniway...
i'll always be that brother u can count on eh=)

i cant chose the path that u wish to walk.
but do know that which ever path u do walk on.
i'll onli be one step behind in case u fall down=)
sometimes i'll let u fall and sometimes i'll support u.
be in the end i'll be sure that u will continue walkin=)

2009-07-11T05:52:00.000-07:00

经长大的约定那样珍惜

与你聊不完的曾经

而我已经分不清你是友情

还是错过的爱情

2009-06-20T08:36:00.000-07:00

I'm Part Of The TEAM=)

2009-06-07T23:13:00.001-07:00

wa!!!!
i hate cad-.-
fuckin retarded...
cant i jus draw it out???
basket...
somemore got so much procedure to do-.-
nxt i become product designer i will never wanna do cad...
illustrator at least not so bad...
photoshop also...
but alias can kiss my ass goodbye-.-
damn...
i sound lik a wuss...
ow well...
i'm given the divine right to complain...

2009-06-07T23:08:00.000-07:00

wahahah.
better when lesser ppl readin me blog...
can fully express...
yes ppl...
i will update my wonderful and insightfull stories so that ur can read=)
hahas.
come on lah eh...
ppl busi and lazy wat...
one month one post considered good enough le=))

2009-06-02T03:45:00.000-07:00

ever had the situation when you see something or u hear something dat u thought wat is wat it seems???well thats all bull shit. unless you are ever in the situation you will never know wat its seems.wont it e better if we have more then 24 hours???cause now i need time.lots of time.hiaz.i cant draw, cant render, can alias. built can, but the final will look lik shit. i got a problem with pakageing,somehow no matter how good my design would be, my pakageing would suck so much that everithings cock up.

2009-05-26T11:07:00.000-07:00

i feel kinda useless...

why???

hmmm

guess i'm always aiming for things i can never get...

haha

i aim for it cause i lik it.

but the talentless me can never get it.

hehehe

i'm nothin big.

serious.

name me 1 talent i hav???

besides being loud-.-

all can do that..

u jus need to shout from young...

i go no talent that is usefull eh...

but i'm always fighting for the best...

in love, in work, in class.

right now.

i got none of the above.

but at the start, i'm always aiming for it.

the frog at the bottom of the well wanna jump out of it.

knowing that it can never jump that high.

that feeling is desperate, lonely and it jus sucks eh...

ppl say my blog veri emo..

heh...

but maybe janice is right.

i'm always smileing.

but i'm not happy inside at all...

maybe dats why my blog shows dat.

i'm not happy at all...

2009-05-17T08:16:00.000-07:00

yes...
to all outta there who continue to visit my blog even though i stopped bloggin...
hahahahahhahahahaah....
ow well...
lazy plus busi lah...
dats all folks...

2009-04-04T01:46:00.000-07:00

2009-03-16T09:25:00.000-07:00

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hahahaahas
been so long since i hear a emo song and don be emo

2009-03-12T04:29:00.000-07:00

其实你很爱他对我的惩罚
说你没有想他是可怜我吧
我也没有借口只能放手
不敢奢求你说爱我
其实你很爱他他很温柔吗
其实你很想他就说出口吧
我也不想多说捂住耳朵
不想再次听到你说
你很爱他

bu shi emo wor
shi wo xi huan ge ci
nosayiemok

2009-03-11T10:03:00.000-07:00

hahas
looks lik addin in colour will not change the way me post ah eh=))
hahaas!!!!
rui kiat ah....
i stop being emo...
u STOP SMOKING???
hahas

you yi duan shi jian wo zhen de hen bu xi huan zhe ge zi:
dui bu qi...
ying wei after che ke zi...
tou shi shang xin the dong xi....
shuo guo le...
bu yao zai shuo dui bu qi...

PPL!!!!
understand eh!!!
ME...
i'l currently doin P1...
something lik ur the exam...
but is porject style...
i fail this i die...
so ofcause i'm stressed over it lah...
ppl ton two nights doin...
abit pek chek...
i show attitude abit...
don fuckin du lan can???
haiyoyo...
now adays de youngsters ah....
haizzz...
hehehe...

there...
i cut down on the emo liao hor!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-07T09:22:00.001-08:00

how could i still miss u???
or should i say...
how can i still miss u???
u tell me that ur sorri...
but wat i realli need is u...
i know i cant ask for anithing...
but thats why i'm hurting...
cause i cant do anithing...
i cant hope.
cant dream.
hahas...
lookin at all my previous post...
all de answers are out eh???
hehes....
i was afraid that there will be nothin at the end of the tunnel.
i was right...
well...
i was angry...
but then i was hurt...
then i was regreting...
now...
i am wanting...
i want somethin i can never get...
i wan something dat i can not ever reach for...
how can those ppl realli wish for the others happiness???
how come i cant?
ur happiness is my happiness...
how come i cant get that?
why???
why isit that i still want u so???
want shld i do?
what shld i ask?
what can i reply?
lostlostlost...
i think back too much...
but if u could say that...
then why isit that things change onli for u???
why do i feel the same when u hav changed???

2009-02-25T06:24:00.000-08:00

what the fuck is wrong with me???
i hav so much...
but i still wan more...
hahas...
fuck.
seriously...
its jus all fucked up...
life is not perfect...
but it should be this complicated either...

2009-02-11T08:03:00.001-08:00

who wans to keep falling???
it does't feel good...
cant stand...
cant stop...
cant control...
but its not dat i dowan it to stop...
but theres nothin for me to hold on...
i cant grip onto anithing...
ppl try to save me...
they reach in...
to pull me out...
to stop me from goin deeper...
but the hand i'm tryin to hold on to is not there...
you say: jus hold onto any1 lah...at least u'll get out
but can u live with that???
maybe when i hit the bottom...
then i'll finaly get to climb back up...
but then...
when i hit the bottom...
will i ever get up again???

2009-02-11T07:58:00.001-08:00

2009-02-09T06:51:00.000-08:00

ni zhi dao wo xian zai you duo ku dan mah???
mei le jia...
mei le ni...
zai wo zui di ruo de shi hou...
xiang dao de ren shi ni...
ke shi ni zai xiang de ren bu shi wo...
i wan anyone...
someone...
jus one...
to save me from droping...

2009-02-08T01:58:00.000-08:00

what hav i been dis las year???
hav i changed???
i hoped not...
i liked who i was...
but alot has changed...
dat we all gotta admit...
ppl...
the feelings...
the bonds...
we cant turn back time...
so all we can do is jus try to bring back de bonds...
things might feel diffrent...
but there was and still will be a reason why we were so closed once:)
for that reason...
i don think even the most akaward situation will pull us apart...
i always mean wat i say...
i do my best to fufill my promises...
once i made a promice i intent to do it all the way...
so for those promices dat i made...
i'll continue doin them till de day i die:)
who knows???
maybe i can still do them after death???
:)

2009-02-04T05:45:00.000-08:00

dis are de thoughts in my mind:
i cant stand u...

wat hav i done to displease u???

why mus u be up my arse???

hate ur attitude-.-

i actualli sadded...

what have i not done???

ge ge jiao luo dou tong

why cant i be happi seein dat ur happi???

i'm soooo fucked

End of thoughts.

2009-02-03T08:47:00.001-08:00

fuck.
here i go again.
why shld u care???

2009-01-19T07:37:00.000-08:00

i don realli lik the way i'm living rite now...
i'm not goin aniwhere...
jus stuck...
lik waiting lik dat...
its lik 1 step forward and den 1 step back...
sucky rite:)
cant realli think of 1 thing dat has went totally smoothly for me...
i cant even think of wat to type lah...
hahas:)
welll...
sometimes is i take a step forward...
and something pull me back...
other times is when i take a step forward i ownself take a step back...
hahas!!!:)
dat jus sound stupid no matter how i look at it...
but still it's still happenin...
do i explain my self clearly???
i mus admit i don realli...
i usually keep it within...
stupid rite...
here i am tellin ppl to speak wat they feel to make themselves feel better...
but i myself keep it in...
sure i say it...
but usually is jus wat happened...
not how i feel...
don ask me why i do dat...
even i can answer u hahas:)
i think alot...
yes u can laugh...
hahahas!!!!
but i realli think alot...
wat happened...
why it heappened...
how it heapenned...
wat did i do...
what DIDN'T i do...
i jus think alot lah...
hahas...
maybe dats why i cant find a girl eh???
i think too much and keep too much to myself...
dunno where hear de...
but i remember someone say i at home and at school is totally diff...
i tel u theres more den dat...
i got lots of faces...
alot.....
when i'm with me archery de i'm dat kind of person...
when i'm with my PID course de i'm dat kind of person...
wheni'm with my 4 SIN den i'm dat kind of person...
when i'm with me family de i'm dat kind of person...
...
sure i open up to a few...
the few shld be smilin when seeing dis ah:)
but i don say de sad part...
de part where i'm hurt...
de part where i'm sad...
de part where i jus feel so pain...
i mean...
everi1 got probs...
few wld realli wanna add ur probs to their probs...
so if i caan solve it...
i keep it...
no need to say it...
i'll jus brood over it...
i usually come to my own conclusion...
if i don...
hehehe...
i don say it lah...
but usually de few will come and ask me:)
and i get realli happi...
i did not ask for hlp and u came to my aid...
isn't dat nice:)
i love friends=)
they make me forgot all me worries...
its lik a zone...(wa....chim)
it jus makes me focus on wats goin on eh...
i laugh i play...
i forget me probs...
but still...
even with friends...
i sometimes still think of things...
i did not even want to...
but i jus do:)
hahas...

2009-01-12T09:37:00.000-08:00

clouds are jus there...
the will always be there...
but we always take dem for granted...
don u think dey feel sad???
do dey feel dat even though dey hlp us shelter the sun even for a little while...
we take dem for granted...
lik totally forgotten...
imagine a day when all de clouds are gone...
onli until den are u gonna regret???
fuck...
i'm actualli angry about dat-.-
stupid rite...
i know...
i feel lik a cloud now...
totally forgotten...
taken for granted...
and useless

2009-01-07T05:55:00.000-08:00

~※→因為愛你.所以放手還你自由←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以不再讓你困擾←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以寧願自己難過←※~
~※→因為愛你.所以我逼自己離開←※~
cool rite...
some1 email me de...

2009-01-05T07:13:00.000-08:00

i cant lie...i miss u much

ai de gen shen...

tong de gen shen...

wo er hui na me tong shi ying wei wo ai ni tai shen...

bu shi ni de chuo...
er shi wo tai ai...

wo shu yao shi jian...

ke shi hai shi hui tong

sinazzzz...

there...a post

2008-12-26T10:42:00.000-08:00

I found a switch, you turned it on

I hit the ditch, you carried on

I was so near now you're so far

Are you quite sure just who you are?

Oh I..

Know you could use a friend but you don't seem to have the time

Oh and I..

wonder if you'll ever get to say what's on your mind

Take a little time

C'mon take a little time

[chorus]

I love it when you call

But you never call at all

Say what's the complication?It's only conversation

And I love it when you call

But you never call at all, oh-whoa

He loves it when you call

[2nd verse]

Remember me? I used to be

Your best-time buddy that you couldn't wait to see

We're gettin' old, it takes it's toll

And hearts getting broken leads to people growing cold

Oh I...

I'm flipping with a coin that's got a tail on either side

Oh and I..

I'm gonna be the one who makes you stop and realise

You could have it all, yeah

We should have it all

[chorus]

I wonder where you beenYeah,

and I wonder who you've seen

And I hope you find your dream

When you do I really hope it's all it seems

(chorus)

2008-12-26T07:04:00.001-08:00

not gonna blog for sometime...

2008-12-21T07:53:00.000-08:00

tryin hard to be happi for u

but i cant...

2008-12-21T07:41:00.000-08:00

christmas is here...

been thinkin alot while in hk...

but i still havent come to a conclusion...

school stress

archery stress

family stress

wat more can i ask for???

merry christmas=)

if onli everi thing can happened lik my dreams....

2008-12-09T08:39:00.000-08:00

a picture means a thousand words...

so i got...

18000++ words in dis post=)

2008-12-05T08:41:00.000-08:00

wanna jus don care about wat others say.

belive in u.

trust u.

and realli belive u do the same.

if that can be done.

i can wait till the end of the world.

i don wanna be a burden.

i don wanna be holding u back.

2008-12-03T03:41:00.000-08:00

mei yong de wo.

she me dou bu zuo.

wo zhi xiang ni dong.

wo yi zhi dou zai.

mei yong de wo.

bu nen dui ni shuo.

2008-11-27T09:01:00.001-08:00

will i find someone dat can understand my pain???

my stress...

my feelings???

what i need...

what i crave...

what i hope...

2008-11-23T11:28:00.000-08:00

as if i cannot fall any further-.-

i jus keep falling...

maybe my mums rite...

there will be a time where u will fall so hard.

u cant stand back up...

2008-11-21T09:29:00.001-08:00

kinda hate dat feelin...
lik i'm being forcefully blocked out-.-

2008-11-20T12:43:00.001-08:00

all i need...
is a good nite slp T.T

2008-11-18T09:46:00.000-08:00

thanks everiwan=)
thanks for evrithing eh=)
but i was jus not in de mood to enjoy anythin...
my mind was jus too full to think of anithing...
but i was realli surprised:)
and i was realli happi:)
thanks=)

2008-11-16T06:41:00.000-08:00

xian nian her ni shuo bu ting de hua...

2008-11-15T09:34:00.000-08:00

its jus wat i need now

2008-11-14T07:56:00.000-08:00

were i lighting them for myself?

2008-11-14T07:51:00.000-08:00

would u come with me?

i tried as well.

2008-11-11T09:17:00.000-08:00

誰還能要我怎樣呢
我愛的人　不是我的愛人
我愛的人　她已有了愛人

原来你是不要和我在一起差这么说

我被骗了

你们对了

开心了吗!!!!????!!!

2008-11-11T08:59:00.000-08:00

痛...

2008-11-10T08:09:00.000-08:00

its all over for me...
and i'm hurting as i look from far...

2008-11-09T05:52:00.000-08:00

wahahahas.
even i dont know how i'm fellin now lor
hahas.
stupid rite.
well...
i don talk about it much.
i think alot.
but in the end i still cant come to a answer.
hahas:)
i feel lots of things...
i don say it out.
i don think i show it too hehes.
mos of the time becausee the crowd too happi le:)
den i also follow happi happi lor...
i feel sad.
i feel happi.
i feel disapointed.
i feel stressed.
i feel confused.
yeah:)
wish dat someone can tel me how i'm feelin hahas.
stupid-.-
lik dat would happened...
well maybe i can get a pet.
a dog or a cat.
den i blurt everi damn thing out...
dem he jus seat there and listen...
wahahahas...
dogs got this eyes that show when they realli listening to u...
dey don say anythin...
but they listen and jus eat there...
wow...
maybe we should learn more from dogs wahahahahs.
damn...
dis is a rather long post eh:)
well...
deeep...
deeeeeeep...
deeeeeeeeeeep...
down...
maybe i'm jus an idiot who havent learn to let go...
OR...
i'm jus stupid...
OR...
there is realli and answer i'm searching...
OR...
errs...
dats all i can think for now...
well...
i don lik the feeling of changin in order to be in someones goodbooks...
why do I have to change???
i' me:)
and i lik it de best when i'm me:)
i feel fustrated when i have to force myself down...
cover up...
wear a mask...
gets realli hot wahahahahs...
so...
i decided to go out everiday with out dat mask:)
who cares weither u think i'm not funni...
who cares if u think i'm lame???
who cares if i'm not more handsome den u???
wahahahs...
cause i know there will always be someone who hates me...
and there will be those who lik me:)
sia lah...
dis post realli dem long:)
dat shld be longer den enough for those who keep lookin at my blog and go:
"wth-.-never update again"
wahahahs
HOWEVER...
i'm not done spamming yet...
i found out that if you don go and care so much about ur pace during runnin...
yupp...
u don go as fas..
but u are more relax...
and the run seems easier...
and!!!
u got more energy to chiong at de ending...
think i nxt week gonna start runnin 2 rounds bah...
followed by 3...
den take a break...
let the leg rest...
den go again...
now is stamina training first...
later den speed training...
for those who are askin why i'm running???
its a secret:P
hahas...
no lah...
i training for standart charted maraton...
this year...
i aiming for 45min:)
support me if u can:)
bitch me if u don:)
and run if me if u ken:)
wahahahas...
purposly added de las line...
bye!!!:)

2008-11-08T02:57:00.000-08:00

fuck...
i'm officially sick...
i cant talk at all-.-
all can do is whisper-.-
throat pain lik shit...
got constant headache-.-
den got presentation coming up-.-
die le...

2008-11-06T09:07:00.000-08:00

i realli cant stand ur prompus attitude any longer-.-
its pissing me off...

well well...
i think i gonna realli suck it big time in my module...
i'm behind lots in my class...
and i pretti much suck in rendering...
i'm in biggggg shit...
hahas...

i chose to forgive and forget lik wat jaime said...
pretti hard in ur case eh???

2008-11-05T07:50:00.000-08:00

for paddy and xian ling read the following...
i think i'm sick T.T

2008-11-03T08:34:00.000-08:00

hehes...
you xiang guo hui dao guo qu mah???
hahas...
ppl always say to move forward...
but dat is onli if u encounted something bad...
if it was something nice...
den of cause u wanna hui dao guo qu...
even though u can never do it...
jus thinkin of goin back to the wonderful times...
nice:)
i lik being carefree and happi go lucky...
so when the oppotunity comes for me to go happi go lucky i'll take it=)
hehes...
wat doe it feel lik holding u close???
wat does it feel lik knowing u will care???
hahas...
wo men hui dao guo qu bah=)
maybe den we can find the answer...
but even if we cant...
i'll still look forward:)
i'll still hope:)
hope is lik a small flame...
sometimes ppl keeps blowing at it-.-
den the flame die out-.-
when that happens...
ppl usually giv up-.-
but i think i'm not lik dat bah hehes...
i think lah XP
my flame is small...
but no matter who keeps blowing it...
no matter who keeps pouring water over it...
i'll always always protect the flame...
i'll make sure the flame dont die out...
and even if..
if...
someone manage to put out the flame...
i relight it:)
there are ppl who help u feed the flame:)
but there will also be ppl who always wanna blow off the flame-.-
so till the time when the flame become strong enough...
i protect it:)

2008-11-01T11:33:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JANICE!!!=)))

2008-11-01T10:32:00.000-07:00

hmmm...i feel totally forgotten by u
yeah...and it hurts lots to think about it
and...i jus wan a little of ur attention
sound lik a kid rite???
but...i jus wish dat
jus once in awhile...you will think of me
WAhahahahs...i'll be happi:)

2008-10-28T09:50:00.000-07:00

gotta love youtube=))

2008-10-28T09:10:00.000-07:00

imagine u had de power to see de life span of others=)
u get to realli cherish de ppl around u=)
u get to safe de ppl dat are goin to die=)
wow...

2008-10-27T11:44:00.000-07:00

gotta love youtube=)

2008-10-25T01:56:00.000-07:00

i wan dis songsT.Tbut dunno where can get T.T

2008-10-22T09:15:00.000-07:00

給我一首歌的時間-周杰倫

雨淋濕了天空灰的很講究

你說你不懂為何在這時牽手

我曬乾了沉默悔的很衝動

就算這是做錯也只是怕錯過

在一起叫夢

分開了叫痛

是不是說沒有做完的夢最痛

迷路的後果我能承受

這最後的出口在愛過了才有

(chorus)
能不能給我一首歌的時間

緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠

在我的懷裡你不用害怕失眠

哦如果你想忘記我也能失憶

能不能給我一首歌的時間

把故事聽到最後才說再見

你送我的眼淚讓它留在雨天

哦越過你劃的線我定了勇氣的終點

哦你說我不該不該不該在這時候說了我愛你

要怎麼證明我沒有說謊的力氣

哦請告訴我暫停算不算放棄

我只有一天的回憶

(chorus)

ru guo wo tu ran shuo wo xi huan shang ling wai yi ge ren le...
ni hui wei wo kai xin mah???
ru guo ni shuo hui...
na wo xin hui sui...
ni hai zi de ni dui wo shuo de hua mah???
wo hai xi wang ni shuo de shi hou shi zhen xin de...
ying wei wo dui ni shuo de shi hou shi zhen xin de...
wo men zhen de duan le de xian le...
bu shi ying wei mei shi jian...
lian zai dian hua shang ye mei you zai liao le..
xian zai gen ye qian yi yang...
mei hua shuo le...
ke shi..
yi qian mei hua shuo de shi hou wo men ye bu ting de sms...
xian zai...

2008-10-21T10:31:00.000-07:00

slowly slowly...
i know i'll be forgotton...
hehehes...
stupid aint i???
well...
dats jus me...
a dumb guy in love...
hahas=)

2008-10-18T13:23:00.000-07:00

i know i damn busy de T.T

but i'll always reserve my 8 and 24 free de=)

and my shoulder will always be there=)

(for u to cry or slp on=)no saliva pls XP)

never forget my 4sincerity de ppl=)

celebrated glenn and eunice de birthday=)

see any difference from las year and dis year???

2008-10-18T13:03:00.000-07:00

dis are de pics for de halet with my P.I.D de around de startin of the holidays=)

did not update cause lazy=))

enjoy bah=)

we played blackjack with majong tiles as chips=))

played truth or dare till never slp-.-

and lin lau bei de wine realli tasted lik shit...
damn siap siap...

don lik it...

2008-10-18T12:32:00.000-07:00

bbq with archery mates=)

everi wan got a little drunk=)))

hahas...

kiddin...

we jus got too high and did too many crazy stuff=)

2008-10-14T06:13:00.001-07:00

it realli feels lik its all over

2008-10-13T14:24:00.000-07:00

i dunno why i find it so hard deletin those msges...
idunno why sia...
first u say dis...
but den ur action it totaly off after dat...
u r de wan dat made me think dat there maybe a chance...
all my friends say otherwise but i chose to ignore...
i know dat its true but i ignore...
why i chose to ignor is a reason i keep to myself...
i dowan to say out cause i know wat my friends will think...
i dowan to hear wat dey say cause i know its true...
but i continue to ignore...
i jus wish i could turn back time...
so many things can be undon if i turn back time...
but even if i cant i still keep thinkin of de pass...
'don dwell on de pass and move forward'
there is always dis voice in my head dat tells me to do so...
there is always a voice in my head who agrees with my friends...
but till now i chose my own path...
all for 1 reason...
but till now de voice is tellin me my path will onli lead me to more pain den wat i'm feelin now...
tryin to push away dis voice is so damn hard...
cause deep down i know...
there is always a chance...
a chance dat everi thing will turn heywire..
but i continue to trust in dat 1 reason...
but wat a man can trust can onli be as far until de reason is broken...
so pls don let dat reason be broken...
cause if its broke...
i dont know wat else to do...

2008-10-11T10:33:00.000-07:00

well...

i'm workin again...

still a waiter...

but dis time is the hotels cafe de waiter...

no much diff exp dat de pay jump from 5.5 to 6(not much actualli)

de hotel changed from good wood park to marina mandrin...

de ppl there alot nicer...

but still lokkin for another job though...

i wan retail wan=)

lik addidas shop dat kind=)

sinmei de promoter de sounds sianzz...

no comission unless u get 300 for de boss...

sianzz...

well...

earnin money is not easy T.T

on de other hand...

if ur family wanna hav a nice meal=)

pls come down to marina mandrin's Aqua marine...

and i will be at ur service=)))

2008-10-09T12:23:00.000-07:00

你的繪畫凌亂著
在這個時刻
我像氣氛純白的白鴿
甜蜜散落了
繼續莫名的拉扯
我還愛你呢
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了

時間過了走了
愛情面臨選擇
你冷了倦了我哭了
一開始都不快樂
你用卡片紙寫著
有些愛隻給到這真的痛了

怎麼了你累了說好的幸福呢
我懂了不說了愛淡了夢遠了
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻我都還記得

你不懂了說好的幸福呢
我錯了淚干了放手了后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢

你的繪畫凌亂著
在這個時刻
我像氣氛純白的白鴿
甜蜜散落了
繼續莫名的拉扯
我還愛你呢
而你斷斷續續唱著歌
假裝沒事了

時間過了走了愛情面臨選擇
你冷了倦了我哭了
一開始都不快樂
你用卡片紙寫著有些
愛隻給到這真的痛了

怎麼了你累了說好的幸福呢
我懂了不說了愛淡了夢遠了
開心與不開心依稀數著你在不舍
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻我都還記得

你不懂了說好的幸福呢
我錯了淚干了放手了后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停呢

怎麼了你累了說好的幸福呢
我懂了不說了愛淡了
夢遠了我都還記得

你不懂了說好的幸福呢
我錯了淚干了放手了后悔了
隻是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著
要怎麼停

2008-10-09T11:52:00.000-07:00

Wo hen luan ah!!!
zhi zi bu dong ying gai zhe me zuo de gan jue zhen nan shou...

2008-10-06T12:53:00.001-07:00

为社么一直不让我看你的脸? 想你可是没有你 , 是一种痛苦.不要你离开, 要你一直在

2008-09-28T10:59:00.000-07:00

i realli wanna enter team archery...
maybe caused i sucked in airrifle...
but still...
i wanna know wats it lik...
to hold a medal proud after trainin lik hell...
i did not get to do it in airrifle...
so i realli wanna get it rite in archery...
i wanna win.
i always did...
when i am competing in somethin i always wanna win...
hahas...
too bad i don hav de same idea for my school work...
but...
to train so damn hard and get nothin outta it...
it jus kinda suck...

i'll always be there for u sis...
i know i made a promice...
but even with dat aside...
i'll be there when ur sky fall to push it back up(:

2008-09-23T08:26:00.000-07:00

di sun went to air port to do work...

-machiam lik go holiday lik dat rite???hahas

before work we slack around T3...

after dat den we finally found a space at de viewin galllery...

i've never spam so many electricity in my life-.-
hahas...
airport de electricity bill sure go up de=)))))

we P.I.D's may play lik shit at times...
but i assure u dat we work lik shit also T.T

my cousins damn cute rite???
dey are twins=))))

when i'm damn stress...
i do stupid stuff...
so...
sorri eh...

i'm glad i did it=)

2008-09-21T14:49:00.000-07:00

i'm soooooo dead T.T
i cant finish any of my 5 part assiment and i hav to hand in tml...
i'm sooo sooo dead...
m i worried???
u think lei???
kepp tellin myself...
de most fail lor...
haiis...
SHIT LAH!!!!!
i'm in big fuck le lah....

2008-09-19T13:23:00.000-07:00

i jus watch 2 seasons of FRIENDS...
and...
i realli lik dem(:
they are jus sooooo....
besides funni...
maybe dats how i think friends shld be(:
always there for each other...
makin jokes at one another with no hard feelins at all
yeah...
dats nice(:

2008-09-18T04:24:00.000-07:00

well...
thats it...
thats all there is...
haiis...
fail...
i think...
worthless is my middle name...
how can somethin dat seem so fun in de start???
become such a bore dat i wanna fail it???
haiis...
bloddy hell...
$2000...
looks lik its bread and water for me from now on eh...
haiis...
and do i look crazy???
i mean...
why keep sayin i crazy for eh???
u wear a carpet around ur neck for god sake...
hehes...
jus kiddin...
don go all sad and shit eh(:
112 for 12 arrows...
WATDE hell....
and i still need to put in another 2000
haiis...
poli is stressful...

2008-09-16T09:41:00.000-07:00

so...
i've jus ate my-dinner/supper/breakfast...
why???
cause i came home from school damn late T.T
why???
cause i was in de cad lab doin work-.-
why???
cause i need to hand in by fri and i'm less den half done T.T
why???
cause i slack and i cant seem to do faster den others T.T
i cuttin down on de slackin though...
but....
still freakin slow-.-
others all do until damn far le...
i still onli 6 views of my handphone-.-
T.T
i'm soooo near...
yet....
soooooooooooooooooo damn far-.-
AH!!!!!!!
damn stressed ah!!!!
wanna die le X.X

2008-09-11T10:15:00.000-07:00

sia lah!!!

Dimond dust rebelion is such a nice show sia!!!

hmmm...

addin it up...

i read a total of 7 diff kinds of manga sia...

TOP: Naruto

SECOND: Bleach

THIRD: One Piece

FORTH: Fullmetal Alchemist

FIFTH: D-gray man

SIXTH: 666 Satan

SEVENTH: Shanman king

all dis mangas are damn excitin de=)

but if u lik anime...

den i promote Bleach...

lots more action compared to Naruto...

Bleach the movie is also nicer den Naruto's...

But the plot from Naruto is still de best=)))

-Hitsugaya Toushiro

From Bleach

2008-09-08T08:21:00.000-07:00

31!!!

31 plates at SAKE!!!

hahas=))

done by-LEONARD!!!!SHERLYN!!!JANICE!!!

wahahas...big accomplishment sia=))

don belive me can go slowly count=))

2008-09-06T11:11:00.000-07:00

i admit...
i'm lazy hahahahas...
dats why i never blogged=)))
bought de bracelet le...
but its diff...
cause de old wan no more le...
too bad for me bah...
and stupid tp website...
dunno why i cant read me mails
damn it sia...
i laready got 5 mails liao...
and sure all important de...
die le bah=)))

2008-09-03T08:48:00.000-07:00

well...basically...
i got bad news...
i lost my bracelet T.T
i lost it at home i think...
i searched lik hell...
cant find it T.T
soooooooo...
i goin to go get another wan...

i feelin more and more unimportant...
hehes...
but nvm lah...
as long as i don think too much about it...
(dat is if i can lah)
den i wont become de emo kid everiwan say i am bah...

2008-08-31T23:35:00.000-07:00

damn...cannot wake up ahaha=))
was suppsoe to go school to play bball,captain ball...
den draw my clothes peg with de others=)
but-.-
cannot wake up....
hehes..
sooooo....
now i stuck at home doin drawin lor=))
why so rush u ask???
not wed hand up meh u ash???
because...
i got campT.T
hahas...
but nvm lah...
dis 2 days de class sure drawin lik xiao de...
so i wont miss anythin=))
AND I GET TO GO FOR TWO WHOLE DAYS OF ARCHERY+)))
hehes...
who knows???
maybe after i enter le jjiu jing TEAM TEMASEK!!!
hehes=))

2008-08-29T10:36:00.000-07:00

yi tian bu ke yi miss so much one...
must each day abit de...

xiang yao zai ni kai xin he nan guo de shi hou gen ni share share...

ni hen hui jiang hua hor???

bu zhi shi ni...wo ye hui dui zhe dian hua sha xiao...

2008-08-29T10:32:00.001-07:00

dang suo you ren wang zi ni de shi hou...
wo hai hui xian dao ni...

2008-08-26T12:25:00.000-07:00

cant belive dis will be mi 134 post le...
hehes...
but i lazy to post=)
well...
lets see...
class was so sian i kept noddin off...
after dat we slack lik shit...
den de other class come find us...
paddy,jamie,jinghui,munting,jason,me sat there say lame jokes...
everiwan go home...
me,paddy munting and jason go find junfeng and doris...
i played paddy's DS...
hehes...played pokemon...
damn fun XP
ay...
i don even hav a psp k...
so don laugh-.-
went to eat dinner at kfc...
laugh lik shit at kfc...
went home...
dad mum qurrel...
i stand there lik sotong...
dad came up giv me money...
say is his bonus...
is dat all???
oh yeah...and i post at p.i.d blog...
hmmm...
i think your father gnna kill me...
but nvm lah...
had a good laugh=)))
wa...
turned out to be a pretti long post eh...
=)kaixin=happi...not equal to someone's name u sotong-.-

2008-08-26T11:42:00.000-07:00

2008-08-24T08:41:00.000-07:00

its been 1 whole year...
times sure past damn fas when ur in poli...
but for me...
de thing always seem to happened lik it was yesterday...
those flash backs for me were as clear as it was yesterday...

hehe...
maybe is i think too much???
but everi once in a while...
de flash back will jus happen in my mind...
de whole thing dat happened today one year ago will jus play before my mind...
on dat veri day...
i cried...
i did things dat seemed so so stupid...
but it was all for one reason...
becaused u left without sayin goodbye...
u were taken from us...
and it was so...
so sudden...
we were all in shock...
i did not know what to feel...
how to react...
but tears...
jus fell...
and my heart jus droped...
i kept denyin it...
all de way until de fact hit me hard...
but before dat...
i prayed...
for dat single 1 hope...
dat u were still alive...

i wanna come clean...
i have thought of givin up on u and try goin for other girls...
expecialli when even u told me not to wait...
i was actualli pissed...
but till now...
i'm actualli still waitin...
when someone ask me for my truthful answer...
i am still waitin...

wo mei zai gen ni lian luo le shi wo de chuo...
you shi hou wo zhen de hen bu xiang gen ni zhi zuo pen you...
wo bu dong ni shi bu shi zai shuo wo...
ke shi wo jue de shi...
wo du le xin hen nan guo...
hen xiang li ke da gei ni...
ke shi wo bu ke yi...
ying wei wo pa...
ying wei ni zhi xiang gen wo zhuo pen you...
ke shi wo bu shi...

wo hai zai den...
wo hui den...
xi wang ni xing wo...

2008-08-23T10:40:00.001-07:00

2008-08-21T07:50:00.000-07:00

[Verse 1]I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you & I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you[

Verse 2]It's been a long time since you called me(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

had a terrible dream las night...

2008-08-20T09:00:00.000-07:00

i'm so sorri...
so so sorri...
i thought i was doin de right thing....
but i jus messed things up big time...

i'm not fufilling my promice...
i don think i am...
i'm so so sorri....
but i've said dis before...
i realli don't know wat to do...
i try...
sometimes things seem all so right...
den it jus come toppling down again...
i did not notice it...
its my fault i admit...
but i'm at a lost my friend...
i'm tryin but i'm lost...

every word i read on jus makes me feel lik i'm realli lettin u down...
i realli need your help...
i've asked lots of times...
but till now i'm still lost...
i still don't know wat to do...
i know i'm not alone in fufillin dis promise...
but things are turnin so bad dat i seem so hopeless...
shes sufferin cant you see???
help me pls...
help me so dat i can help her...

2008-08-17T07:47:00.000-07:00

dang zai kan dao ni ni shuo kuo de hua...
bu dong ying kai zhe me xiang...

2008-08-15T08:57:00.000-07:00

2008-08-15T08:28:00.000-07:00

2008-08-13T08:07:00.000-07:00

2008-08-13T06:45:00.001-07:00

damn...
i hate bein sick...
makes me irritated and weak...
cant run cant breath properly...
SHOO!!!

2008-08-12T10:56:00.000-07:00

plannin somethin big...
hmmm...
tough...but big...

2008-08-10T07:37:00.000-07:00

gonna giv a detailed happenin of yesterday=))

so i waked up plannin to go run at bedok reservour...

but guess wat???

it was 10.30 when i woke up...

hehes...

late le...

so i quickly go down to vivo...

bought drinks for de picnic...

since i did not prepare any food XP

saw seby and his GF at hobourfront...

huibing ah if i can remember XP

even seby got girlfriend le T.T

hahas makes me abit jealous...

den came janice.

sherlyn and KH.

glenn,hongquan and BaBa...

went down to sentosa...

went to e palawan beach instead of suliso...

i prefer soliso beach...

de sand at palawan are not sand at all-.-

they are small little rocks dat hurt ur feet-.-

played a stupid game with BaBa...

hahas...de face damn pain after datT.T

den seby showed his affections!!!...

hahas...

he did two lovely hearts for his GF=)

sweet hor...

hahas...

ate...play...went crazy...

den shirui&jiajie came...

den me and baba went to get their cake

on de way talk about our fav subject...

GIRLS=P

hahas...

two guys without girfriends...do de math=)

surprised jiajie...

did not surprise shirui though...

stupid shirui go turn behind and saw me carryin de cake-.-

hehes...

wind too big so onli light one candle...

den....

onli me played with cake=)))

hahas...

i came from behind and decorated Kh de backX)))

but..

i was stupid enough to attack de person with two cakes in his hand T.T

so my face and hair got caked T.T

later jj and shirui...seby and huibing went off first...

den de rest of us went to vivo for dinner...

sat at de sky roof to eat...

cause wanna see fire works...

but end up onli see have of it...

de other halve was blocked-.-

everiwan is tellin me not to wait...

why???

2008-08-08T12:03:00.000-07:00

sometimes...
all it takes is 1 msg=)

2008-08-06T11:39:00.001-07:00

What Leonard Wong Hoong Yen Means

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.

You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.

People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.

You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.

You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.

You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.

You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-08-06T07:17:00.000-07:00

onli got photos from my phone...

de rest will be uploaded nxt...

when i get dem...